purgatory

8.23.2019. a lady holding onto her husband’s arm. he has one closed eye, a cigarette sticking out of his mouth, and a slanted grin. as long as they’re together, they skip on heavenly clouds. a man with bright blonde hair, wearing a backback decorated in dirt. he looks at me like we’re past life friends.Continue reading “purgatory”

Purpose in Purses

2.26.2019. hoarding all of my assumed necessities in a pink Coach bag. where’s my vape? she asked. leaning against a table as two heavy Kate Spades smack me, their blonde owners rush towards smiling faces. i slip away from the table, and return to another hit by another Kate whose owner is a tall, hostileContinue reading “Purpose in Purses”

to be human

7.16.2020. we spoke of obligations when the door opened, leading one out. a sunny day. fled to seek Detachment. the bug snuck in and circled around us. i two-stepped as others ran near it in rage. we’re no longer barbarians, yet we still must kill what disturbs us. our fingernails have purple polish on them sinceContinue reading “to be human”

grateful

6.25.2019. i used to tell myself i had big eyes to See what others cannot. a tiny mouth to whisper secrets or say it all in one breath. talk fast. the thoughts that plagued me stared at my profile. they wonder when i’ll fall again, claiming to feel my low vibration, tempting me into anotherContinue reading “grateful”

misguided soulmates

1.25.2020. like a character in my favorite books: charismatic with a carefully constructed laugh. never angry, always composed. their light dims. darkness screams at you telepathically. we hopped onto the carousel. one stepped off. the other stayed. skipped back on board. jumped off. gripped harder. the headache from the dizziness made her faint. she wokeContinue reading “misguided soulmates”

Be Alone

in a world led by people sickly obsessed with temporary things — having undistracted time alone is a connection with your soul. “do you love yourself?” is not a complex question, yet it is feared. in their fearfulness, they confuse being alone with loneliness. codependency over self-reliance. independence is self-love through mindfulness, through the mutualContinue reading “Be Alone”

Our Darkness

share a secret with reflections of our darkness. “I’ve never told anyone this.” if i fix her, maybe i can fix the hollow parts of me. oh. i can just fix me? as the others were outside being carefree, he said, staring at the TV’s trauma unfold, “Happened to me, too…” not an overshare, aContinue reading “Our Darkness”

home

the idolization of nomads from a potted plant, freshly watered. peeking through the blinds at the adventures That Could Be. a scent carries around my leaves. a home I once visited. i feel comforted. musk, dust, and its loneliness sneaks through when i’ve decided to forget. no invitation back. my home is here in theContinue reading “home”

The Last Letter

only cry for special occasions. here’s a clarification of my tears. if i am not diplomatic, I am over emotional. we can’t have that. the thorough breakdown of the scenario. let me explain. just the highlighted sentences in the book of an undeveloped opportunity. scurry away. come back, blatantly detached. i’m an essayist, not aContinue reading “The Last Letter”