Purpose in Purses

2.26.2019. hoarding all of my assumed necessities in a pink Coach bag. where’s my vape? she asked. leaning against a table as two heavy Kate Spades smack me, their blonde owners rush towards smiling faces. i slip away from the table, and return to another hit by another Kate whose owner is a tall, hostileContinue reading “Purpose in Purses”

psycho

2.19.2019. the pause before the scene begins: a white blank screen. i scream in my head, yet smile delicately. American Psycho appears on the TV. “you’re crazy.” paralyzing fear has me wrapping my body with my arms. i’m sitting next to an opportunist. my dreamworld is a distorted reality. “i’m psycho,” said with a laugh.Continue reading “psycho”

the human experience

6.20.2019. location: bored, sitting on a bar stool. we’re all licking the same bottle of beer. having epiphanies on love. thinking out of lust. same eyes, peeking at things in grandeur. i love the Idea, not the reality. politics matter! bullshitting to deflect in all circumstances. let me tell you a funny story: i amContinue reading “the human experience”

to be human

7.16.2020. we spoke of obligations when the door opened, leading one out. a sunny day. fled to seek Detachment. the bug snuck in and circled around us. i two-stepped as others ran near it in rage. we’re no longer barbarians, yet we still must kill what disturbs us. our fingernails have purple polish on them sinceContinue reading “to be human”

mask

8.16.2020. a trigger is an unhealed wound,” i tell her. “what aren’t you unhealed from?”she accuses, deadpan. self-deprecation stories in resharable relatability: vulnerability has been meme’d. our shadow side is seen as an Evil to be repressed. creativity is then blocked. art becomes pieces of unoriginality intertwined with undeserved superiority. self-righteousness is a balancing actContinue reading “mask”

ghosts

6.13.2019. green on our mind. materialism is all we seek. shoot your shot. beer pong mentality. fun over fulfillment. shake your ass. be liked by everyone! sleep little at night. groupthink is the routine. fancy attire. big smiles. areyouhappy?areyouhappy? disappear if it’s too hard. on people. on places. we’re obligated to no one but ourselves.Continue reading “ghosts”

grateful

6.25.2019. i used to tell myself i had big eyes to See what others cannot. a tiny mouth to whisper secrets or say it all in one breath. talk fast. the thoughts that plagued me stared at my profile. they wonder when i’ll fall again, claiming to feel my low vibration, tempting me into anotherContinue reading “grateful”

misguided soulmates

1.25.2020. like a character in my favorite books: charismatic with a carefully constructed laugh. never angry, always composed. their light dims. darkness screams at you telepathically. we hopped onto the carousel. one stepped off. the other stayed. skipped back on board. jumped off. gripped harder. the headache from the dizziness made her faint. she wokeContinue reading “misguided soulmates”

misunderstood

I used to keep all of my feelings nuzzled inside, and when they seeped out, I learned to joke to explain it all. Charm them! Or: I’d fight to say bare minimum. Walls. Highly sensitive, I didn’t know how to put words to feelings. Too many feelings! I sat in my front yard and ranContinue reading “misunderstood”