Purpose in Purses

2.26.2019. hoarding all of my assumed necessities in a pink Coach bag. where’s my vape? she asked. leaning against a table as two heavy Kate Spades smack me, their blonde owners rush towards smiling faces. i slip away from the table, and return to another hit by another Kate whose owner is a tall, hostileContinue reading “Purpose in Purses”

ghosts

6.13.2019. green on our mind. materialism is all we seek. shoot your shot. beer pong mentality. fun over fulfillment. shake your ass. be liked by everyone! sleep little at night. groupthink is the routine. fancy attire. big smiles. areyouhappy?areyouhappy? disappear if it’s too hard. on people. on places. we’re obligated to no one but ourselves.Continue reading “ghosts”

grateful

6.25.2019. i used to tell myself i had big eyes to See what others cannot. a tiny mouth to whisper secrets or say it all in one breath. talk fast. the thoughts that plagued me stared at my profile. they wonder when i’ll fall again, claiming to feel my low vibration, tempting me into anotherContinue reading “grateful”

post-run

5.30.21. earbuds in, cord hanging loose, music blaring: I observe the scenery. Somber faces on auto-pilot. I wonder if my own face appears as detached or curious as I would hope. I concentrate on my movement, and ruminate on my growth. the past years have been sessions on defining boundaries. why do I seek anythingContinue reading “post-run”

Be Alone

in a world led by people sickly obsessed with temporary things — having undistracted time alone is a connection with your soul. “do you love yourself?” is not a complex question, yet it is feared. in their fearfulness, they confuse being alone with loneliness. codependency over self-reliance. independence is self-love through mindfulness, through the mutualContinue reading “Be Alone”

compliments & comparisons

west coast paid pretty, east coast esteemed wit, and the south with our frizzy hair and our humility. boost us up as we are. sweet tea or pressed juice. coffee black, please. our perception of pretty is individualistic. we are who we claim we are, and that should be enough. expect us to compare ourselvesContinue reading “compliments & comparisons”

home

the idolization of nomads from a potted plant, freshly watered. peeking through the blinds at the adventures That Could Be. a scent carries around my leaves. a home I once visited. i feel comforted. musk, dust, and its loneliness sneaks through when i’ve decided to forget. no invitation back. my home is here in theContinue reading “home”

The Last Letter

only cry for special occasions. here’s a clarification of my tears. if i am not diplomatic, I am over emotional. we can’t have that. the thorough breakdown of the scenario. let me explain. just the highlighted sentences in the book of an undeveloped opportunity. scurry away. come back, blatantly detached. i’m an essayist, not aContinue reading “The Last Letter”

Shadow

11.21.18 I’m in a mood, I say. But this underlying chaos rises too close every time I speak. I’m just tired, I think. Clouds of puffy smoke dance inside of me, leaning against the Exit. I spot my shadow. She is impatient. She is a warrior, ready for this stagnancy to pass. Slow and steady,Continue reading “Shadow”