home

the idolization of nomads from a potted plant, freshly watered. peeking through the blinds at the adventures That Could Be. a scent carries around my leaves. a home I once visited. i feel comforted. musk, dust, and its loneliness sneaks through when i’ve decided to forget. no invitation back. my home is here in theContinue reading “home”

The Last Letter

only cry for special occasions. here’s a clarification of my tears. if i am not diplomatic, I am over emotional. we can’t have that. the thorough breakdown of the scenario. let me explain. just the highlighted sentences in the book of an undeveloped opportunity. scurry away. come back, blatantly detached. i’m an essayist, not aContinue reading “The Last Letter”

Catholic Guilt

6.27.18 A former busybody, persistently too involved with Others. My selflessness, just a facade: am I appearing kind enough? Sincerity melting away in the pool I am floating in. The sun heats the top of head. It doesn’t gleam. It taunts. On a quest for wisdom from the moon. (It hides from me.) Whisperings amongContinue reading “Catholic Guilt”

Red Hoodie

I’m nineteen, walking a dog at 2 AM. I spot Red Hoodie. He pauses. I walk faster. I make the block 3 times after. 1st time: ignores his conversation partner. 2nd time: is gone. 3rd time: follows me in his car. I look at the sidewalk to guide me back home. I’m twenty-four with aContinue reading “Red Hoodie”

Burden

stay quiet in fear you may actually be seen. shout harsh words, spitting into the air like punches may be thrown. still a scared, scarred little girl controlling her commanding attention now. thinking before speaking: aren’t I wise? an analytical rant, followed by an ignorant and privileged aside. canibesmallercanibesmallercani anywhere that will seize me upContinue reading “Burden”

Shadow

11.21.18 I’m in a mood, I say. But this underlying chaos rises too close every time I speak. I’m just tired, I think. Clouds of puffy smoke dance inside of me, leaning against the Exit. I spot my shadow. She is impatient. She is a warrior, ready for this stagnancy to pass. Slow and steady,Continue reading “Shadow”

masculinity (the ego)

i was not created to fuel the male ego. nor my own. entitlement leads to a toxic karmic path. i am nobody, and neither are you. we do not float along to slut shame, or to sneer at our peers for things we misconstrue. do you know me? i don’t know you. i am anContinue reading “masculinity (the ego)”

sharing our energy

7.14.18 we pass on catty words — that’s how we make friends, see? my hate is similar to your hate. we sigh and breathe insults at those we love or even better: leave a gust of silence so still it leaves puckered red marks circling our throats. we have mouths that speak these heavy words,Continue reading “sharing our energy”

live your truth

7.12.18 How many white lies have you told? I’ve told more. How many omissions have you kept, nestled away? Bet I can beat you. I’m the best of the best. Do I do this out of compassion for others? (30%) Reality just disappoints the imagination. So many delusions, the world says. Keep the dream alive,Continue reading “live your truth”