grateful

6.25.2019. i used to tell myself i had big eyes to See what others cannot. a tiny mouth to whisper secrets or say it all in one breath. talk fast. the thoughts that plagued me stared at my profile. they wonder when i’ll fall again, claiming to feel my low vibration, tempting me into anotherContinue reading “grateful”

misguided soulmates

1.25.2020. like a character in my favorite books: charismatic with a carefully constructed laugh. never angry, always composed. their light dims. darkness screams at you telepathically. we hopped onto the carousel. one stepped off. the other stayed. skipped back on board. jumped off. gripped harder. the headache from the dizziness made her faint. she wokeContinue reading “misguided soulmates”

post-run

5.30.21. earbuds in, cord hanging loose, music blaring: I observe the scenery. Somber faces on auto-pilot. I wonder if my own face appears as detached or curious as I would hope. I concentrate on my movement, and ruminate on my growth. the past years have been sessions on defining boundaries. why do I seek anythingContinue reading “post-run”

misunderstood

I used to keep all of my feelings nuzzled inside, and when they seeped out, I learned to joke to explain it all. Charm them! Or: I’d fight to say bare minimum. Walls. Highly sensitive, I didn’t know how to put words to feelings. Too many feelings! I sat in my front yard and ranContinue reading “misunderstood”

Be Alone

in a world led by people sickly obsessed with temporary things — having undistracted time alone is a connection with your soul. “do you love yourself?” is not a complex question, yet it is feared. in their fearfulness, they confuse being alone with loneliness. codependency over self-reliance. independence is self-love through mindfulness, through the mutualContinue reading “Be Alone”

beginnings

new beginnings wait for us to keep an open mind. they sit at the steps until we squeeze past them to the door. singing to us these impressive, impending triumphs. “be brave.” we don’t listen. we are rebel children without strategy. we live with anger. pride as our dishonest guide. black paint on our walls.Continue reading “beginnings”

compliments & comparisons

west coast paid pretty, east coast esteemed wit, and the south with our frizzy hair and our humility. boost us up as we are. sweet tea or pressed juice. coffee black, please. our perception of pretty is individualistic. we are who we claim we are, and that should be enough. expect us to compare ourselvesContinue reading “compliments & comparisons”

Our Darkness

share a secret with reflections of our darkness. “I’ve never told anyone this.” if i fix her, maybe i can fix the hollow parts of me. oh. i can just fix me? as the others were outside being carefree, he said, staring at the TV’s trauma unfold, “Happened to me, too…” not an overshare, aContinue reading “Our Darkness”